Good Afternoon
way too much catching up again.
Thanks for the continued prayers, thought it might be good to give an update (I have no secrets anyways), so this is what I am dealing with ... the homefront is not doing well. Wife has totally checked out of the marriage, and is not willing to even talk to me, she is staying with the tenants upstairs. I think it is "too comfortable" as they are her friends now. That also sabotages the plans to give notice to the tenants. She is telling people that she is separated, she has asked me for a buy-out and is not interested in reconciliation. I am getting prepared for a mortgage loan with the bank. I have an initial consult appt with a lawyer on Tuesday afternoon, so I'll see what is suggested. I don't want this to go this way, but she is giving me no regard at all, this after being gone for almost a year... no intimacy or anything else to build on. My perspective is that she has been and is in a toxic situation, with negative influencers (family, tenants) for TOO LONG. I think there are still health issues, and unchecked mental health challenges. She has many diagnosed health issues, and suffered head trauma / concussion (untreated) several years ago when she fell on rocks at a creek. My only thought where I might hold off for reconciliation options in time, is IF she attends psychiatric counselling and is properly diagnosed, so that we know what we are dealing with. Otherwise this may be the end of this chapter. I'm Trusting God, and Waiting on The Lord. I also have a counselling appointment later this week. Basically I'm sad, numb, confused and conflicted (faith values) by all of this. I believe in miracles, and God can fix this, I have the gut reaction that there is more going on then that though. I have a LOT of support.
in regards to my shoulder / arm - managing ok, still sore, numb and muscles are tired at times
I've been working on cleaning up the garage, and I'm busy with Bookkeeping too. Still need to get the truck looked at.
cheers all
