Thank you everyone for your support.
The counseling has been amazing. It's cleared up allot of my issues, and given me direction again. One of my biggest problems was in trying to rationalize why she had the affair. Now that I understand it better, I no longer care what her excuses are to justify it. The same thing is now true with all of it. I just don't care anymore, and I want to move on and work on the ne beginning that I have with my life.
One thing that I was told that really helped was that it's not my job to judge her, that's up to God. It's sounds simple enough, but when I heard it, something clicked inside of me, and I realized that it was true.
I've been working on my front room and I'm very pleased with my results. I still need to trim it out, and build a new desk, but overall, the transformation is significant. It is now my "man cave" with dead animals on the walls. LOL It's my sanctuary and happy place. I look forward to walkin in my door, and I'm happy sitting in here.
Now that the weather has warmed up, and temps are hitting 70 degrees every day, I'm ready to do some mowing. I've done my front yard once, and enjoyed the heck out of it. What I really want to do is hook up the rear finish mower to my little tractor and spend a few hours on my trails. Unfortuantely, the grass hasn't grown enough to justify it just yet.
For those who advised visiting my brother, I'll be there this weekend. I'm going to help him out with the lighting in his shop and give him an 11 pound, smoked, Greenburg Turkey that's been in my freezer since Christmas. I don't want it, and I hate throughing it away, so I'll give it to Todd. He'll eat anything!!!
Eddie