Crusty,
Abbie and you have had a great life together. And, as rekees4300 wrote, someday you and Abbie will meet again at the Rainbow Bridge. It is hard to let go, but you will know when the time comes to do so. My wife and I have been there with both dogs and cats. Now, we have two horses that are getting up in years also. Most people will say that it is better to let them go peacefully, which they deserve, rather than keep them around in pain. Here is a little poem that may be of some solace to you:
MAY I GO
May I go now?
Do you think the time is right?
May I say goodbye to pain filled days
and endless lonely nights?
I've lived my life and done my best,
an example tried to be.
So can I take that step beyond
and set my spirit free?
I didn't want to go at first,
I fought with all my might.
But something seems to draw me now
to a warm and loving light.
I want to go. I really do.
It's difficult to stay.
But I will try as best I can
to live just one more day.
To give you time to care for me
and share your love and fears.
I know you're sad and afraid,
because I see your tears.
I'll not be far, I promise that,
and hope you'll always know
that my spirit will be close to you
wherever you may go.
Thank you so for loving me.
You know I love you, too.
That's why it's hard to say goodbye
and end this life with you.
So hold me now just one more time
and let me hear you say,
because you care so much for me,
you'll let me go today.
Bob