I hate you.
I despised my job. From the minute I showed up at work to the minute I left work, I hated every minute of it.
I didn't hate it at first, it took some time. Some time to figure out that I'd been lied to and that I was supposed to suck on it if I didn't like it and continue to believe the lie.
By that time, I had enough of my life invested in it that to walk away would have wasted years of my life.
The money was good, benefits were good so I stayed because I have a lovely wife that deserves the best I can give her. Had I been care-free, I would have left that craphole and forgotten it.
Trust me when I say, there are far more people in that situation than you can imagine. For you to have actually enjoyed your job is a blessing few people get to have.
BTW, i don't like sitting at home at all. Hate that almost as much as I hated my old job. It's why I'm here. I bought an old Hobby Farm in Michigan that I head to in the Summer. Summers in Florida are for the young.