I could tell IR that you were a gentleman right from your first post. Your head remains open, If you feel you made a mistake you are not afraid to admit it (heck, sometimes one doesn't even realize they're being antagonistic) but we all go through life a little bit insecure at times and feel we need to make a stand as a result of being insecure and simply cannot admit it. When one girdles themselves to come to grips with this human frailty, I see this as courageous. To me that is one way to measure the grit of a true man or woman. Heck, I bet you can even wear a pink shirt and be secure about it
Hmm,,,chaps and a pink shirt. Wish I thought about that back then and showed up on the landing with that get up.