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[westbrooklawn]

Eddie,

Didn't see your original post, but I can read between the lines. Went through a similar situation 13 years ago, and I can really empathize with your pain. As others have said, keep busy, excersize, stay close to God, talk with your friends... even if it's only online. Find a good marriage counselor and spend a few sessions with him/her. It will help you understand what happened, and what the problems were... understanding this is a tremendous relief in itself. You will find out that you were not the problem... you are a good person... I can tell just from the posts and comments I have read on this site.

Right now you are traveling through a dark, deep forest... let me assure you that at some point you will begin to see some light, and all of a sudden you will find yourself in a bright and happy place... it will just take time.

I know I am a stranger other than the contact we have had on this site, but I would be more than willing to talk with you if you wanted. I have requested to become a "friend" on your facebook page... your decision. My prayers are with you.

 

[lakngulf]

Hang in there, Eddie. Time is your best ally, and time spent busy will be a blessing. You are a project man with a detail eye. I have enjoyed reading your posts, following your projects, and getting to know you cyberly. I, too, feel like a know a good man, a strong man.....with a heavy heart just now. Best of luck as you find busy, find direction, find out how many folks are pulling for you, and find your way out of this.

 

[EddieWalker]

I looked up Acute Depression since nothing came up for "acute depressive illness." Definition of Acute Depression

From reading the list of symptons, I'd say that it's very close to what I'm feeling. I haven't had any suicide thoughts, but the other things on the list pretty much sum up how I feel.

Having been through this before, I know that it's just a matter of time for it to fade and then go away. I'm in a waiting mode righ now and figure it will be six months to just fee human again, and probably several years to get totally over this. I don't have any interest in dating or meeting anybody, but know that will change with time.

Right now, I just really appreciate the support that I'm getting and the reasurance that I'm not a terrible person. I struggle between blaming myself and wondering why I wasn't a better husband.

My faith in God got me through my last divorce when I felt the same way. I know that there is a plan for me, and I've always tried very hard to follow that path. I don't understand how this happened, but realize that it was for a reason and that my future has now become open to new oportunities.

Thank you,
Eddie

 

[mikim]

!@#$%^&* Eddie !!
I didn't see your original post either but am sure sorry to hear about it. BTDT ... years ago.....hang in there...and I agree with some of the others -- road work really helps. It's strange but a daily 6 mile run can actually pick your spirits up. It's tough getting dressed for it and getting out there .... but after - it feels so much better.----and do it OFF your property.....looking at too much other stuff there interferes with the process.

 

[jinman]

Eddie, I was your friend before either you or I got married and I'm still your friend. This is a tough, tough time and I won't torment you by listing all the things that will be there to remind you of your loss. Just stay active and stay focused on moving on with your life. When you need a friend or if you want to get away for awhile, my door is always open. In the meantime, keep your life as normal as possible by doing normal things and reach out to friends and relatives who are close. That should be easy for you because you're a good guy with a big heart and tons of talent. In time, this will pass. We'll be here with you the whole way.

 

[zzvyb6]

Hi Eddie. After seeing your original post and relating to it pretty much, and looking at your construction website, noticing all the incredible home-works that have been done, I can't believe that over the years and along those many paths, you haven't noticed a woman that aroused your curiosity about what it would be like getting to know her. Ya know? I'll bet that the look you gave her when wondering about it made her wonder what it would be like to get to know you. Well son, now is the time...

 

[EddieWalker]

I've been getting friends request from some of you at facebook and I welcome them. The more the better. I read everything and I'm flattered that so many of you care enough to respond, send an email and search out my profile on facebook. Thank you.


Eddie

 

[polo1665]

Eddie,
Add me to the list of those who were floored by this news. I have not been on TBN for long and don't post that much, but I certainly have always enjoyed reading about your projects and adventures. I feel for you, and also for the two children who surely will suffer without your influence.
I realize that you are going through a difficult time, but I sense that you are strong and will find your way through it. You certainly have some very good friends on this sight, judging by the responses so far. You can take some comfort in knowing that all of these people (including myself) have a great deal of admiration and respect for you.

Good luck,
Mark

 

[LBrown59]

Hang in there.

 

[dooleysm]

Sorry to hear this news Eddie. I've been impressed with everything you've done and posted about here on TBN through the years. A guy with a wide variety of interests and that takes pride in his work is OK in my book. You've got a friend in southern Indiana. Keep your chin up, it can't rain all the time.