Thank You

[Alan L.]

I did read the original post but don't remember if I responded. I was floored by the news, and so was TK. We were looking forward to seeing you at Bird's party.

I can't imagine what you are going through right now, you certainly don't deserve it. Its not your fault and someday you will find happiness again. Quality people do, you are young, and have your whole life ahead of you.

I am with some of the others on here that recommend that you lean on local church brethren, this is a ready source of support for your soul.

 

[HCJ]

Eddie, I don't know you but from all of your posts, I feel as if I do. I always read what you have to say and enjoy your comments. Of all of the regular members whose names I see, I must say that I remember yours the most. Maybe because of your many and various contributions, but certainly because of your obvious passion for your projects, and genuine interest in the projects of others. From my perspective, I would say that Stephanie is the loser here. Don't forsake that positive spirit that has become so apparent to me ond others here. Keep your upbeat spirit and have faith that you will emerge better than before. You have more friends than you realize.

 

[Steve C]

Hakim sent me a nice message explaining why he removed my thread about my pending divorce from Steph. I appreciate it that he took the time to explain it to me, and that it was in my best intererest.

The emails and response from everyone was very much appreciated. I hope I was able to read all of the replies, but if I wasn't, I still appreciate it that you took the time to say something.

Obviously, I won't go into an details. It's just a total shock to me that she would do what she did. I never saw it coming, and I didn't suspect that she was capable of doing what she did.

For now, we're still talking, but she doesn't live here anymore. The locks have been changed and I'm installing a security system with video cameras that will record everything for a week at a time.

The worse part is coming home. The house is empty and I'm a mess. My confidence is just about gone, and I'm afraid of so many things right now. The house is too big, too quiet and too cold. I can't warm up. I have a chill that's inside of me that even with the heaters going, I'm cold.

I bought an excercise bike to help wear me out. I can't sleep and I can't eat. I had four forkfuls of something yesterday don't feel up to even trying today. The idea of laying down and having nothing buy my thoughts in my head is just about the worse thing possible. I won't start drinking, but I can see why some do. It's just so hard to not keep wondering why, what did I do to make this happen, and why she didn't care. The list never stops of things to think about, and the reasons to be ashamed for not being the husband that I wanted to be.

The only thing closely resembling good is that I'm hearing from so many people that I know. I don't have a single friend here in Texas. I married my friend and made her family my friends. They are all gone now, so I'm totally alone here. My clients have been great, especially the ones on Facebook. My brother is an hour away,and he's been good. I'll probably spend more time with him in the coming months. Helping him out with his place and doing all I can to wear myself out.

Eddie

Eddie
I have lost my job, my house flooded and we lost 40 years worth of stuff. Then my barn burned down and we lost everything else that wasn't in the house. My unemployment is about to run out and my health has taken a turn for the worse. I am living in a 28 foot camper trailer in northern Michigan where the temperature has been below zero and keeping my water and drain pipes from freezing is a continious process.

I feel very lucky. My wife is still here.

I can't even imagine how you must be feeling.

Just try to focus on the future. The past is a done deal. That is the only way I can handle it. Don't give it another thought.

When you get out of bed in the morning, go forward....

I wish you the best of luck, take care of yourself.

If you are ever in Michigan, stop by and we can talk about it. Consider me one of your friends, even though we have never met.

 

[Ed1C]

Eddie, sorry to hear the news. I agree with Kyle, you have many friends in Texas. Maybe a good time to meet some of us.

I've read enough of your posts to know you are a good man & like helping other people. I've always appreciated your thoughtful advice and suggestions based on real life experiences on so many topics. You are having another life experience and I have confidence you will not only pull through, you will be helping others in similar circumstances some day.

The only other thing I can say is to draw near to God. He loves you & has a purpose and plan that is always better than anything we can come up with ourselves. Ed

 

[Sackett2]

Eddie, my condolences on this bad turn of events. Long term goal of mine was to someday make it to Texas and stay at your place, if'en you got that rv park going.
Just as you did when she was there, find a outlet for your time and energy. All of us here are praying for you...
If the time comes and traveling is a plan, I would bet most all us TBN'ers would be glad to host you.

 

[Thomas]

Sorry about the bad turn of event..indeed a shame.
Vent if you must for we are here for you,and as long as you tie your boots each morning you shall make it...this I promise!!!

 

[dex3361]

Eddie just look at the number of people on here that are praying for you and are concerned for your well being, so know you are not alone even though it may feel like it. Keep plugging along and it will get better. I know in the most difficult times in my life I leaned on Christ and he help true to what he said Hebrews 13:5.......for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor FORSAKE thee.
So lean on him and know that many here have you in their prayers.
Randall

 

[irvingj]

Eddie, just saw this.... what can I say? Sorry? It shocked & hurt me to read about your situation. Hang in there. WBB in NH

 

[EddieWalker]

Thank you everyone for your support. You have no idea how nice it is to read and to know that you are out there. I also appreciate all the offers to to talk. While I'm overwhelmed with a need to scream out everything that she did, I wont. There is nothing to gain from it, and I know that it wont make me feel any better. Only time will do that.

Eddie

 

[Red Beast]

Eddie, I don't know you, and don't pretend to. What I can say from my experience, personally, and professionally, is that you should seek the counsel of your family doctor, and perhaps, a psychologist. You have an acute depressive illness........ significant event, loss of appetite, altered sleep pattern, apathy. You need to take preventative measures to ensure you don't develop a chronic illness.
All the best.
RB