I went to court yesterday and the judge granted my divorce. Looking back, it kind of makes sense to have it take so long because everything's been worked out and I've moved on with my life. I feel a lot of disapointment and loss over the break up and what she did, but no real anger anymore. We don't talk or keep in touch and I sometimes wonder about hte kids, but I realize that they are no longer a part of my life anymore either. There's just no way to make that work, and in every scenerio, it just comes out bad in the end for them anyway.
I've been dating and meeting quite a few women. The dating world is crazy. I've discovered texting and facebook at extremely important when getting to know somebody. Text is how most of the single girls out there like to communicate, and facebook is where you find out if they are drunks, smokers and have anger issues. If it's not on their site, it's on their friends site.
For the last month, I've been seeing a girl that has really impressed me. She's an RN that recently moved down here from Michigan who is in charge of Nurses Retention at the hospital. She's extremly successful, smart, ambitious and is a very talented artist. We've never watched TV together, but instead, spend our evenings talking and doing things.
Work has been going great. I'm struggling with getting all the jobs done and clients waiting on me to get to them. One of my biggest fears when Steph moved out was not being able to pay the bills. With her gone, I have more cash and less stress. I didn't see it at the time, but she was becomeing a drain on me and slowly dragging me down. Sadly, everything I did just led to her needing more and me trying harder to make her happy without succeeding.
The land is looking good. We're making realy good progress on it this year and the long term sites are getting very close to being cleared. There is some really nasty jungle that I've been trying to open up and clear for the sewage line that is giving me issues because of the rains, but it's getting there. The big delay is dealing with the mud and getting the trees to the burn pile. I have two piles going right now, so it's one or the other depending on the amount of mud we have to deal with.
My parents are here and doing great. While I'm out working for clients, they keep the fires going and help out around the house. They needed to stay in the house while some repairs were done on their RV, so I bought a new bed for one of the bedrooms, got some night stands and lights for them, and then Mom painted the room and made it all nice again. For the first time in my life, I have a spare bedroom. LOL
Now I'm going to start looking for a new truck. I've wanted one for awhile now, but bought Steph a new car last year and wanted to pay that off before buying myself a truck. She took over that loan and I've just been waiting for the divorce to be final before wanting to take on any debt. There was some fear on my part that the divorce wouldn't happen, or that something would come up. She was good about it and there wasn't any issues. So now the hunt for a new truck begins.
Thank you to everyone for all your support. At first, I was very down. Depressed and very unsure of myself. It was a complete surprise to me, and I'm sure that I didn't deal with it as good as I should have. I don't have any regrets, but realize that I could have behaved better too. It's one of those things that I'm not proud of and with had never happened, but thanks to all of your emails, I was able to move forward and worth through all the confusion and fear.
Again, Thank you.
Eddie
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