Thanks for all the support and advice. Karen just finished her second and last 96 hour non stop round of chemo and is dealing with the side effects right now. It's horrible in every possible way, except that it works. The radiation is even worse. Five days a week, for 30 days,she gets a focused blast of radiation directed at her colon where the cancer tumor is located. At first, it was just a pleasant warm feeling. Then it started to feel like a sun burn. Now it's a full blown second degree burn that is being treating with silver sulfide and some very strong pain meds, with little relief. She has 8 more radiation treatments to go. Fortunately, the cancer is dying and in the long run, this will just be a really bad memory.
As for the horse, I'm working on changing how we feed them. New fencing that will isolate them from the other animals, and humans. They killed a duck the other day, it's just mayhem right now, which is from my ignorance in how they behave when it's feeding time. That's half the issue. Karen loves them and enjoys being close to them when feeding them. I don't care for them and I'm sure they sense that, so it's more of a chore for me to get it over with as quickly as possible.
Training would be great, but it's just not going to happen. We both work full time. Karen is a professor at the university and working from home while she is sick, and I have a remodeling business. Our house is in a never ending state of remodeling which is leading to a huge addition and more remodeling. The land is a never ending project, and all my tractors need maintenance and repairs. We have two show dogs that are top 20 in the nation for their breed, and one has a good chance of making top five and getting invited to Westminster by the time she is two years old. The dogs are where our true passion is. The horses are more of a nice idea that for me has proven to be a bit too much. While we can afford them, it's still bothers me spending money on having those two horses that I don't care for, and really need a job, or something to do. I'm sure they are bored, and too full of energy without a release. Some times they just start running for not apparent reason.
When Karen is past this, we will find them a new home. She is very emotional right now, and all of you are right that now is not the time to add to her pain. Thankfully, you have given me some ideas on ways to do this, and find them a good home. They won't leave until we are both sure it will be to a better place then they have with us right now. Then that will leave us with 3 horses. One that is in her 20's, another in her teens, and then her daughter, who is two. In time, we will just have the two horses, which will make Karen sad, but at least give us some options on what we want to do down the road. Get more horses again if she decides that she wants to ride, or just leave them as grass eaters.
