So sorry. I lost my best friend about a year ago. I know you don't think you are ready but there really is only one thing that can fill the hole in your heart and your spirit. I still miss Ranger each and every day.
My wife made me go get a new puppy, and it really had made me hole again. He is not Ranger, but he does have such love for me, I never knew how much I really needed a dogs love.