the old grind
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MNB, I suppose it's a toss-up by now, but more likely to be agreed on by all, I've been making a complete a__ of myself by taking the general tone of comments waaay to seriously ... and too personally. It's not like having started the thread makes me responsible for the weight of consensus at all. :duh: !!!
Between requests for clarity and my overwrought sarcastic responses I should know better than to have been rattled by folks doing here doing as I often do anywhere, sounding a bit redundant (to me) but just agreeing with a perspective on my role in the original story.
I'd done something, right or wrong, and what it triggered (a new neighbor's er' tantrum that we laughed about) earned me more of an education than the entertainment I thought I was delivering to you.
I PM'ed two members, one to try to steer my own comments away from the awkward attention I'd foolishly brought on ... hopefully unhinge myself from embarrassment and get out of the public eye, and one for support. One brought a sympathetic response and not getting another was part of my reawakening and accepting responsibility vs looking for a way out of the hot seat without adding more fuel to the fire I'd lit. Didn't get the slap on the face it could have got me, but I kinda came out of the fog all by myself.
Feel free to see this as partial explanation, or just a cheap excuse for my behavior and another shot at entertainment:
Yeah, "it was my meds".
I get big or little round generics or one of three (lately) oval shapes from various sources as delivered to my provider. For the second time in a decade, within a week of refilling I was convinced something wasn't working. I was on an upswing before I walked across the road at my friends' request, pretty confident that I was doing good. Still looking for a good night's sleep (a bellyful of crow hasn't helped that :laughing
, and with the 'clusters' knocking me off my feet daily around noon for over a week now I'm on the downward spiral that my Rx should be minimizing.
I promise to take any 'medicine' earned by this er' explanation better than what I kinda asked for in recent days & pages. There are more apologies warranted than I'll get around to making in my personal shame. All that said, if nothing else I might earn that 'putz of the week' badge I've worked so hard for.
Meanwhile, no repercussions yet here in the nabe, still thinking the drama is over. But, if nothing else comes down on me there's a lesson this thread & y'all have tutored me on that ought to help me take my licks like the man I hope to be if/when I grow up. And btw: If I get all weepy thanking you guys the low I'm spiraling down to now it's further proof I should ask & pay more for the name brand stuff.
Thanks for putting up with me, fairly & honestly actually, and handing my head back with more class & taste then I've shown yet. Oh, and as my big fancy words taper off you should know my head-spinning is easing up and I'm getting the realignment that might let me pass for 'normal' again. 4 hrs of sleep in 24 would suit me just fine, but I'll take what i can get.
No one asked for this, and I'm sorry for another long post, but it'll get better when I'm doing better ...
Cheers for now guys, and lets keep hearing what you think about my uh ... what can we call it? tog
Between requests for clarity and my overwrought sarcastic responses I should know better than to have been rattled by folks doing here doing as I often do anywhere, sounding a bit redundant (to me) but just agreeing with a perspective on my role in the original story.
I PM'ed two members, one to try to steer my own comments away from the awkward attention I'd foolishly brought on ... hopefully unhinge myself from embarrassment and get out of the public eye, and one for support. One brought a sympathetic response and not getting another was part of my reawakening and accepting responsibility vs looking for a way out of the hot seat without adding more fuel to the fire I'd lit. Didn't get the slap on the face it could have got me, but I kinda came out of the fog all by myself.
Feel free to see this as partial explanation, or just a cheap excuse for my behavior and another shot at entertainment:
Yeah, "it was my meds".
I promise to take any 'medicine' earned by this er' explanation better than what I kinda asked for in recent days & pages. There are more apologies warranted than I'll get around to making in my personal shame. All that said, if nothing else I might earn that 'putz of the week' badge I've worked so hard for.
Meanwhile, no repercussions yet here in the nabe, still thinking the drama is over. But, if nothing else comes down on me there's a lesson this thread & y'all have tutored me on that ought to help me take my licks like the man I hope to be if/when I grow up. And btw: If I get all weepy thanking you guys the low I'm spiraling down to now it's further proof I should ask & pay more for the name brand stuff.
Thanks for putting up with me, fairly & honestly actually, and handing my head back with more class & taste then I've shown yet. Oh, and as my big fancy words taper off you should know my head-spinning is easing up and I'm getting the realignment that might let me pass for 'normal' again. 4 hrs of sleep in 24 would suit me just fine, but I'll take what i can get.
No one asked for this, and I'm sorry for another long post, but it'll get better when I'm doing better ...
Cheers for now guys, and lets keep hearing what you think about my uh ... what can we call it? tog