Rutwad, you might not realize this, but we're rootin' for you dude. We do care. I was thinkin' bout you at work man! Thinkin' what can I do to boost Rutwads spirits?
One of my co-workers has a wife that moved out 2 years ago, and he's still tryin' to make things work. It's killing him. All the people at work keep telling him to let her go, but there's a kid involved so he's tryin' to make it work. And he's wasting his time and effort. She's been dating someone else for a year now, though she claims it's nothing serious. DON'T DO THIS. Don't wait for her to come back. Try to put it in your head, that you don't want her back. She's done an egregious thing that there should be no tolerance for. Kick this chick to the curb, and find yourself one worthy of you man. Oh, what kind of locks did you use when you changed them? Put up some cameras too. The person that you love, is no longer that same person. No tellin' what she'll be up to now. I don't mean fo this to sound offensive, but it's the truth, and I'm gonna tell it like I see it. Be strong, keep your head up, and make some lemonaide. How's the saying go? When one door closes, another one opens. Sounds easy coming from someone who hasn't one through this same problem, but believe me. I've gone through some stuff that I'm not proud of, and I've let others take advantage of me 'cause I'm a nice guy. I've had to pull myself up using by bootstraps more than once, and if there's one thing I learned from my past, it's that there's a wonderfull lesson to be learned from each hardship. It's a test of charactor and strength. And it'll teach you who you really are, and help you become what you want to be. But you have to let it, and use it to your advantage. Not let it control you, but you control it. Control it, drive it. That in which you manifest, will come before you. Now get to manifestin' some good. If you want to rant, rant here. We're here for you. It's small. I know. What can we do with words. I'm sittin' here in my living room with my wife and two dogs, stokin' the fire, tryin' to stay warm, but I'm there too. In your corner. Ok, I'll shut up now, but I'll be back.
Ok, I lied, I gotta tell you what I do when I'm feelin' a little down. Then I'll shut up
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When I'm sitting in a ditch, or the lowest point, I think of trips I've takin' on my bike. The best trips. Not who I was with persay, but the ride itself. On my motorcycle through the coal mining towns of West Virginia. The smell of the coal burning in the powerplants. The rain hitting me, my hands freezing 'cause it's 34 degrees showing on the church sign I'm passing. The turn comming up. The transfer of weight. Having to turn on the heated grips, but they're no match for nature. Though my palms are burning from the heat, the rain has soaked through the "waterproof" gloves, and the tips of my fingers are frozen. My chest has never felt this cold. The wind is goin' straight through the flaps and zipper and showing me that I'm getting beatin'. Maybe I should pull over, fuel up, and get a hot chocolate. Now I'm drinkin' the hot chocolate, talking to a trucker who tells me about some of the roads he's been on. Not too much hot chocolate. Having to pee takes energy, and I still have 2000 miles to ride by wednesday. Six ounces, then I'll leave. I'm buying a newspaper too. I don't even plan on reading it. It's goin' behind this sad excuse of a leaking zipper in my gore-tex rain suit to help warm my chest. Those homeless guys know how great newspapers are for warmth. Proof I can learn from anyone. Now that I'm not shivering anymore I'm gonna go. I'll eat an apple and energy bar next stop. Gotta keep things flowin' so I'll push some water at lunch. But it's only 10:00 am, gone 200 miles, and I've got another 300+ before dark. I'll make Kentucky by noone tomarrow, and I'll get to smell those tobacco leaves hangin in the barns. Can't wait. I've sung the same song over and over again so many times in my helmet, Dwight Yoakam would be plantin' me in the Big Sandy if he heard it.......
You get the point
. Now I'll shut up.. for now
